Monday, August 31, 2009

Big I, Little i, what begins with I?

Itchy, itchy Ichabod...I, i, I*

Has it really been two weeks?'s been a crazy few weeks; I started this list in my head two weeks ago...

  • internet ~ really, don't know what I'd do without it
  • income ~ two steady incomes in fact, incomes not affected by the economic downturn
  • ice cream ~ especially chocolate from our particular midwestern grocery store chain...yum
  • instructions ~ I like instructions--even if I sometimes choose to ignore them
I guess I'll say that's enough for 'i' and hope that I get back into this blogging habit soon.

*Dr. Seuss

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Big H, little h, what begins with H?

Hungry horse, hen in hat...H, h, H*

  • House ~ I'm grateful that we have a house, a nice house, probably more house than we need.
  • Home ~ But a house isn't the same as a home for me. We have a home, a place where there is love and family and togetherness.
  • Home for my words ~ I'm grateful for this blog, for a place to write and how it has helped me connect with others.
  • Help ~ It's hard for me to ask for help, but when it's offered in love, I'm grateful.
  • Hands ~ When I think about it, it's pretty amazing what hands can do.
  • Heat (but not HOT weather) ~ I am usually cold, so I'm grateful for some heat. But I'm not crazy about hot, humid weather. I'm thinking more about winter here and how grateful I am for our wood burner and how toasty warm our house can get.
*Dr. Seuss

Friday, August 14, 2009

Big G, little g, what begins with G?

Goat and goo-goo goggles, G..g..G*

I've been thinking about G for some time and actually have had quite a list in my head for the whole week since I last posted, but I had to make time today. A nerve was hit for me today and I know it shouldn't have been but it was. A woman going through unspeakable grief commented on a blog of hers a feeling she had when a bunch of us started doing this "ABCs" of gratitude thing. It feels fake and insincere to her--my words for how I read her...I own it that is my take on what she wrote. But it hit a nerve because maybe it started somewhat flippantly, but I am choosing to keep doing this because I need to. Writing is something that has always been life-giving and healing to me. And I have been wanting and needing to write, but not having the motivation to begin. Having a reason, a purpose, a silly tool of the alphabet is motivation. I feel stuck right now, and while it's not her unspeakable pain, it's my pain, my heartbreak, my need. And it helps me to focus on the good things, the things I'm grateful for so that I can think beyond the stuck-ness. And list for G--in no particular order....

  • Grace ~ on so many levels, mainly God's grace--grace that pours over and fills up and sustains and keeps me going even when I don't feel like it or even necessarily feel it, but also the simple grace extended by others...not minding that it took almost 2 weeks to return a phone call or the thoughtfulness of a door held
  • Grief ~ really? especially after the opening paragraph? Yes. My grief may not be as dramatic or horrible as many others have experienced. But when I look at my circle of close friends, most have experienced very little grief. My dad died 22 years ago when I was not quite 10...rarely a day goes by that I don't experience grief. And that's not the only loss I've faced. And while I would gladly trade this grief for the people or situations that are unrepairable, having experienced what I have makes me a better pastor, better able to sit with death and grief and unanswered questions. And I am grateful for that.
  • Giggles ~ particularly those of Baby Girl...why is it that baby giggles are so amazing?
  • Gratitude ~ I'm grateful that my life is such that I can be grateful.

It seems that I had a much longer list in my head a few days ago when I didn't have the time. Ah, well. So it goes.

*Dr. Seuss

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Big F, Little f, what begins with F?

Four fluffy feathers on a Fiffer-feffer-feff.*

  • Freezers ~ I'm very grateful for freezers this week. I threw out my back on Monday, so having a frozen ice pack to use on a regular basis was a must. That--and for the quick, easy, frozen food!
  • Flexibility ~ Again, back-related. I didn't think I was really flexible, but now that it hurts to bend certain ways, I am grateful for how flexible I am.
  • Flexibility, in less physical terms ~ I am grateful for a flexible schedule. Though I must admit, I would be even more grateful if others could appreciate my flexible schedule. But I'm not dwelling on that--I'm being grateful here!
  • Fingers ~ cute, sticky, little fingers and the realization of how much they can do now--of course, it's always all about Baby Girl!
  • Friends ~ those with whom it's always possible to fall back into easy friendship, even if time has passed
  • Freedom ~ can't really put this one into words

*Of course, it's Dr. Seuss.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Big E, Little E, what begins with E?

Ear, egg, elephant...E, e, E*

  • Email ~ I have never, ever been a telephone person. I'm so glad to have email ~ especially for work stuff. I'd much rather send the email than make a call when possible.
  • Electricity ~ I take it for granted, I know. E's a hard letter for me--guess that's why I thought of it.
  • Elephants ~ I probably only thought of them because of Dr. Seuss, but they are pretty amazing creatures.
  • Eyes and ears ~ do I really need to comment on this one?
  • Evenings, especially ones with no meetings this time of year ~ I hate winter for lots of reasons, but primarily because it gets dark so early and I tend to have more meetings. I love having it be light after supper, with free time to decide how to spend. These days, it usually involves outside playtime, a bath, bed for baby, then tidying up the house. Sitting with a cool breeze blowing through the house, the house tidy, the sun gradually setting, time to read or blog or just relax, ahh...

*Thanks to Dr. Seuss